It's been a financial adventure ever since I lost my job with ELC.  God proved over and over again His love and faithfulness in His walking with us through this adventure.  Over and over that I should never doubt His ability to provide but yet I still do.

We had unexpected bills surface in September and class cancellations for me in October and November that leave me stressed to the core about how we will cover all the costs without going crazy.

Last night, I lied in bed, defeated.  With tears pouring down my face, I cried out to God... WHY?  Why did He allow this?  Did I miss something from Him that I was supposed to do?  How are we going to survive?  And eventually, with frustration in regards to something else I said... if you want me to do this, then you have to prove yourself and provide for my family?

And suddenly it hit me... that question from my BSF study about Moses, "Can you think of a time you blamed someone else because you forgot God's faithfulness and power to work in your situation?"  Yep, I know my answer now for sure and yep I'm still blaming them... oh wait, yes I'm still blaming them.  I'm angry and bitter and frustrated... and still blaming them.

God, please forgive me.  Forgive my anger, bitterness and frustration towards this person and situation.  Forgive my doubt and forgetfulness of Your provisions.

I remembered some wisdom a lady had shared the previous week at BSF.  And in her struggles, she stops to name how God has worked in her life to remind her that He is good.

Lord just in this short adventure you have:

1.  Sold our car when we were down to our last 100$.
2.  Gave us money to pay for our helper, the day before we hired her.
3.  Gave me a student who paid a full years worth of lessons up front.
4.  Numerous lunches and coffees paid for.
5.  Wellcome gift cards that covered several months of our groceries.
6.  Gave our family of 5 a flight to Bangkok for 7000 after the cost was 14000 just two weeks before. 7.  That same trip, You found us a money exchange that was 1-1 which gave us an extra 1000 to enjoy our trip.
8.  You gave us hand me down uniforms for Isaiah so we didn't have to buy any.


You truly are Jehovah Jireh, the Lord will provide.


As I started naming these amazing blessings and care of God, I got a text and cried.

One of the expenses coming up is Isabella's winter school uniform.  Man, this girl has grown like crazy over the past year and everything is about 2/3 inches short.  It's not a huge expense but still an expense and today was the day for the deposit and fitting of the uniform.

That text said,

"Hi
I've got some uniform items to pass on if you want them.  Jacket, 2 shirts, and a pair of pants."


Ok, ok God... I hear you loud and clear.  You are Jehovah Jireh and You most certainly provide.